Sorry guys, I deliberately left this blog unattended for the past few days even though I had the chance to update it. Felt rather depressed and sad about certain things. But now I'm BAAAAAACK so sit back, scroll down and enjoy the show.
I saw this video on YouTube the other day while I was surfing for some new music. And I saw this video which is not the official video, but yet it's quite touching. Although it may be cliche to some (and I kinda expected the ending), it still nevertheless is able to tug my heartstrings.
Repeat - David Guetta feat. Jessie J (unofficial video)
Not going to be analystic and all, that's for you to do. But I really want to say what a lovely video which is very in tandem with the music (: as one YouTube comment goes, there's so many dance videos about the protagonist going to clubs and dancing and rocking out with all those other people there. Or something eccentric happening. Bring back the ones filled with happy love please! No frustrated actors or bitchy personalities in vids anymore!
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I'm the kind of person who likes something big to happen in my life once in a while. Something GOOD of course. Or exciting. I cannot bear living a mundane life of repetition, doing the same thing over and over again. Which is why I'm really cautious in picking out my future career, as it may spiral in a cycle of similar events continuously. Darn be to the bureaucrats, I must totally avoid any jobs that require a freak load of black and white for me to do my thing.
Red tape is good in the sense that it commands a neat collection of things and ensures that most of the things are in order. But it's very inefficient and inflexible. Even if people working underneath such rules and regulations actually have the potential to do better, they may be limited to what extent they can do due to such red tape. I'm not one for such things. I'd rather do things my own way in my own style.
Sorry, just tired with some things in my life, which I'm glad are OVER.
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Okay, my next blog post, I'll talk about all the concerts I went for this year! So look out for it! Quite a few photos (:
Replay,
Jradon
3:14 AM
Thursday, May 24, 2012 ;
Shattered Dreams ♥
You told me many things which made me feel rather bleak about my future...
Oh so you want to be a teacher?
There's going to be so much work to be marked and you'll have a hard time marking those scripts and homework every single day.
And the pay is not that high compared to the amount of stuff you'll have to do.
An actor? Are you kidding me?
Being an actor is tough work; you gotta wake up whenever the director calls you to do so, even in the wee hours of the morning.
Plus all those actors are just putting on a front during shows.
During my company dinner, the actors were all very enthusiastic and joyous on stage.
But when they came down and sat at their table, they barely spoke and had tired expressions throughout.
Don't get me started on the salary.
You want to learn dancing you say?
What will you do with your future then?
I mean, it's good for your health and all but, even yoga is a healthier exercise.
(Oh my, those words.)
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I have seriously lost all drive to do anything, because whatever I want to be or learn are all frivolous and have no future. All my dreams are slowly shattered and without dreams or goals, what hope do I see in myself?
You say that you are not forcing me to become a lawyer or a doctor, and probably think you must be one of those people who do not resort to that.
But the irony is that you're already paving my path, by closing those that I want to take.
Yeah you're not forcing me, but you're coercing me already! What other choices do I have?
I just don't feel any desire to do anything anymore already.
Maybe I'll be like those geeks who stay at home and play computer games throughout the day until I die (this is an actual phenomenon by the way).
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I don't even know what the point of this post is. Because everything is pointless as well anyway.
Fuck life.
12:15 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2012 ;
JUMP 《跳浪！》 ♥
JUMP 《跳浪！》 is the newest show to to broadcasted on Channel U, and it's a locally produced one as well! It is a secondary school setting, so it's something youths and young adults can very relate to. The show follows overzealous teacher Xiao Chun Li (played by Jeanette Aw) who leads the Blue Sky Secondary School's Gymnastic CCA, and helps to save the CCA from being terminated by the new principal with a naggy KPI slogan. Oh, and she also has a stranger guy living under the same roof as her, who's also a co-form teacher of sorts called Xu De Le (played by Zhang Zheng Huan). And romantically, she calls him "Lele".
As far as I know until the third episode, there are 5 main teenagers introduced, including Edwin Goh (Fighting Spiders), Jayley Woo (winner of New Paper New Face 2011), Justin Peng (can't remember what shows but I keep seeing him in Channel 8!) and Foo Fang Rong (School House Rockz, which I loved last time hahaha!). I can't really recognise the rest though whoops!
I have to say that Jeanette Aw is the funniest person in the show. I mean, I've seen her being strict, fierce, serious, psychotic, crying before, but NEVER have I seen her act so BLUR and even BIMBOTICALLY! HAHAHAHAHAHHA. OMG really cracks me up whenever I see her go into those moments in this show, which is quite like everytime.
And I'm surprised that I'm not only the one watching this show! Leon and PZ watch it as well (: and they all sing praises about it. Really glad that we have such a winning show in Singapore once again.
So watch it guys! And if you fear you might not understand much since you came halfway, you can always go onto xinmsn.com to watch the previous episodes! Not very high quality though, so it's preferred you watch on television (:
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Since young, I can never skip ropes that well. The most I could go was about 50? Which is kinda weak for a 16 year old person then hahaha. Wanted to grow taller right! But there's almost no space to where I can skip in my house without breaking something and skipping in public area by a fat person is NOT APPRECIABLE, so I shall not do that. Really sucks to be fat.
How to do parkour like that! I want to learn leh! Or even dancing while being fat doesn't really feels or look good. I must lose weight here haha!
Gotta go now and do my homework!
Jumping for joy,
Jradon
11:26 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2012 ;
O School ♥
I know I've been owing you guys this piece since about 8 weeks ago. Yup, I did take up a dance course from O School, as recommended by ex-classmate Natasha, and I've never looked back since and it had been truly a wonderful journey. Although it has just been an eight short weeks course, I've learned plenty and made a couple of friends as well (:
For starters, I've been learning the genre of Hip Hop! :) I take the course of Hip Hop I, which is the most basic and beginner course for novices like me. I mean, aside from wild shaking on the dancefloor, I have no idea on anything about dance. No theory, and a horrible self-learnt practical.
O School is located at *Scape, which is at Somerset there, so it's quite near from both my house and school, so even if my days end late, I can go to class with no hurries. The place can be filled with some would like to describe as 'pai kia' people, or even gangsters, but so far I haven't met anybody fitting such a description yet. Even better, *Scape hosts the 987FM radio station so expect to see your local DJs around if you frequent the place. The most I've seen is Shan & Ross last year! (: or did they change the girl? WHOOPS.
My first class was the first Monday after CTs, and I didn't know anybody there. My best friend, YU FAN, didn't want to accompany me because he wants to complete his Spanish lessons and says he has no more money :/ oh well then I've been waiting since forever (May 2011) so I just went ahead.
It was quite intimidating. There were so many people in the class, about 25?, and everybody was rather silent. There were a few very social ones, including this guy whom I'd later learn his name is Kuru or something like that. I just sat there quietly, staring at my phone. No, it wasn't awkward, because somehow I felt confident about myself.
There was this guy who seemed about my age and I only picked up the courage to speak to him on the fourth or fifth week. He's Edgar, and currently in ACS(I) this year. The funny thing is about how the world is so small, as his sister is deskmates with my bestest friend Ashley. So cool huh? I think we got along pretty well and soon we were talking quite a bit.
I learnt many dance techniques, such as the basic up-bounce, down-bounce, "3 step" (not a real dance move), LA walk, body wave (THE WORST THING EVER, ESPECIALLY FOR FAT PEOPLE LIKE ME) and the Bart Simpson. It was quite cool and there's this great feeling when you can finally execute your dance steps perfectly.
I think I forgot to mention one important person, who's the instructor: Terence. Everyone says that he's such a patient, nice guy who teaches really really well. He looks like mid-twenties, and has a reputation in O School (and possibly in the SG dance scene) of an awesome dancer. He said that hip hop isn't his thing, and I think he said his best is freestyle or something. But whatever, his dance skills are as slick as rick, and his personality as a teacher is super respectable. Edgar repeated several times on how lucky we are to get him as our instructor. I agree as well, and he certainly is a dancer who dances, not just moves.
Our last session was just that Monday, 14 May 2012. Terence wasn't there unfortunately ): we were so thinking of thanking him and actually talking to him for a while and maybe taking a photo with him. But it's okay. I guess we'll be seeing him more for the next subsequent dance course - Hip Hop II! (:
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I think O School is a great dance school, and their school fees are one of the cheapest yet high-quality in Singapore. There are other famous schools, like Studio Wu, Danz People, Natasha Studios etc. and it'd be good to experiment new places and new teachers someday, when I have the time.
I'll also be learning Popping I from June onwards, but I'll make sure that it doesn't affect my studies. As a responsible A-Level student, I can't be affording to burden myself with too many commitments which can wait. And I don't want to be setting a bad example to my friends or juniors as well. There are things which need to be done, and I'll make sure I'll see to them.
Yet, I hope that one day I can be a good dancer as well (:
She be ratchet,
Jradon
11:53 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2012 ;
Everybody's Going Techno ♥
Somebody That I Used To Know (dBerrie Remix) - Gotye
This is the song for those melancholic or seductive dancing in the clubs. Or of course, some good clean proper contemporary as well (:
Tomorrow will be posting a longer post about my (amateurish) dance life! Stay tuned!
REMIX,
Jradon
6:47 PM
Sunday, May 6, 2012 ;
The Nini Phenomenon ♥
You know those days when you just are tired of life but the nearby radio starts playing and you feel this electrifying energy jolting through your senses, making you wanna swing your hands in the air and kick them numb feet?
The word "nini" is a Spanish word which describes the current global trend of teenagers who don't want to do any homework, and all they want to do is to just party their life away. It may seem like a generalisation, but everyday we're bombarded with sights and sounds of how these young bloods revel like there's no tomorrow.
Some people say that the teenage life is becoming more and more decadent, and some of us may even be leading a very hedonistic lifestyle. That is, all we seek is pleasure in a morally declined manner. You see it on television: excessive alcohol, casual anonymous sex, drugs and whatsmores. Well, it does seem fun and normal for us to be experimenting our lives. Hey, we only got one life, why not try everything right?
This blog post isn't going to argue whether such a lifestyle is good or bad. If you're looking for those kinds of essays, please google elsewhere (:
Anyways, the word 'partying' has carried along so many negative connotations such that the word by itself is deemed suitable only for those crazy, wild people in our lives. But I beg to differ. Partying, is like one of the fun things you can ever have in your life. Note that I'm not using the word 'clubbing' here. That will be reserved for later.
I mean, what's life if all you ever do is work and work? Sometimes, we chase all the meaningful things in life, and in a funny way it all becomes meaningless. Like things may seem apparently very useful for your present or future, but in the end they don't even matter. Because ultimately, we're only going to see the life how we want to see it.
So why not just put on those dancing shoes, dress up in a sartorially fashionable way and hit the music? Life's worth celebrating and everyday should be a special day. Don't reserve good days for the weekends only. Live 7 days, not 2.
Oh dear, here I am preaching again. And defending myself. THIS POST WAS MEANT TO HAVE FUN.
I like partying. I have different methods of doing so. So far, I have never met anyone who has the same interests as me. I mean, maybe a little of shared interests but not as extreme as me? And no, I'm not praising myself. What I mean is that, I can be a little crazy sometimes and out of control of my mind. Especially when the music comes on. I love bad music. They can be so fun to jump around to.
And no, I'm not good dancer if that's what you're wondering. But partying was never intended to be reserved for those who can dance. As long as you can jump, shout, and stir some spirit in the crowd, I say you're a party-goer.
I used to dance crazily with my ex-classmates Teck Lee and Kit Chong back in Cat High. After school, we would turn on the speakers and attach our handphones to it and play the music loud (not too loud though or we'd get caught!). Then we'd just sing along with whoever's in the class or dance crazily to it. HAHAHAHAHA. OMG all those crazy things we did! I'd give almost anything to relive such crazy days.
And the best thing of all is when NO ONE'S JUDGING YOU. We're all such great mates we'd have never judged one another like EWWWW HE DANCES SO WEIRDLY. Everyone would just let loose and do so many crazy stupid things.
I'm not saying that doing what I mentioned above is in any way 'BAD', but it's always great to make mistakes when you're young in life. I'm not going to give a textbook answer and say that making mistakes early will teach you so many lessons BLAH BLAH BLAH. What I'm going to say is that making mistakes early means going through an experience which may be guilty pleasure that at least you got to enjoy, and when people judge you for doing that is of a lesser intensity compared to when you're doing it as an adult. Confused by the long sentence? Okay let's put it this way: if you're a small kid and you got caught peeing in the bushes, but hey, that's better than getting caught when you're an adult and all right!
I guess we should listen to our pop stars Rihanna and T.I. when they told us to "live your life".
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I guess I can't be considered to be a nini. Maybe because I'm not a girl. Wait, are genders involved in this? I don't know. But I'm too busy to be dancing my time away. Loads of homework and study need to be done here.
Though that's not going to deter me from living each day how I want it to be!
Mama, you know what a nini is?
Jradon
1:55 AM
Friday, April 27, 2012 ;
Drama, Karma and a Brokenheart ♥
DRAMA
Oh dear my life is getting more and more dramatic that even I cannot contain it anymore.
Firstly, the worst kind of 'humiliation' (but I'm actually so thick-skinned so that word is quite useless on me) that can ever occur - I got 0th percentile for Economics. Like what the hell right can that even happen? Made me feel so emotional the whole day. Haiyah. And PTM is tomorrow some more.
Secondly, my old friends are all coming back! Like in some strange way or another, people whom I have not been close to for these 1.5 years are somehow meeting me. It's so great to see your old friends back (: especially on Wednesday where I had my trip with RCYC to VJC and TJC. So many familiar faces. There was this warm feeling of seeing my friends back (: like just this Wednesday alone I met Martin, Joel Hong, Eugene Tan, Jovin, Bryan Ang, Xiang Kai, Nicolas Ow, Titus, Ben Wong, Brandon Sze, Chang Jing, Jia En and Benjamin. And Thursday, I coincidentally bumped into Ashley on the MRT train! She was on her way to Novena to practice her reading, which I would be hearing this Sunday.
Thirdly, a junior was supposed to keep a very crucial secret but I think she let it slipped the next day. If I find out that this is true, she is soooooo dead. As they say, secrets can kill. That's why is always safe to keep them lips sealed.
Oh dear, I sound like a maniac narrator. But you can't expect a wannabe not to have his own dramatic moments, can you?
KARMA
Did I do something bad? I don't know. But I probably did or else why have I been facing some adversities on my own? With no one to be there to support me. Sometimes, I have to care about something all by myself and the toll is all on me.
I do know that I have been secretly helping people, even if they do not realise it. But if karma is supposed to return me with something pleasant in return, why is nothing good coming out of the things and dreams I'm chasing? Why are my days feel so numbered and for the first time in my life, my future looks bleaker than an anomalous storm situation.
All these bad thoughts should be cleared off my mind. I know that my life is a very lucky one already.
But it could have been so much better.
BROKENHEART
I'm suffering from a broken heart. It's not just about love or those kinds of things, but also so many other factors as well. I haven't told anyone, because the things may seem so trivial. Yet they're the things I hold so close to me.
Just continuing a fight which everyone else has given up on.
Brokenhearted - Karmin
The song totally does not fit the mood I'm writing in my post right now but still it's a nice song.
But it kinda speaks my mind on how I feel.
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Alright so the week ends with a rather melancholic feel. Or maybe that word is just a bit too intense. But you get my drift right? I'm kinda tired and tomorrow have RJCO Concert which I'm going with Martin! (: we'll be cheering on Yi Long and Jin Hong who are performing. I will also cheer on my other friends performing as well, 'cos that's what friends do!
Up from this Californian king bed,
Jradon
10:26 PM
Thursday, April 26, 2012 ;
Only In Malaysia ♥
I'm not a Malaysian nor do I think I have any roots from there but I have a few Malaysian friends and friends who were from there. I really like MY because not only is the food there cheap and good, they have beautiful, clean resort beaches (think: Malacca), a giant rollercoaster playground (Genting), and a haven for nature lovers (Cameron). They too have such beautiful cities and the Petronas Towers, which is one of the tallest buildings in the world. I once visited the mall beside the Petronas Towers, and I regret not taking the chance to fully enjoy the Kinokuniya there which was damn cheap!
Other than that, I also watched Bong Qiu Qiu's videos (last time when I was much freer) and wanted to go on a shopping trip to KL! Maybe Yi Long can house me there :D
But shopping isn't what's on the agenda for today.
This video is very recent and was produced by Malaysians. It has garnered over 2 million views in such a short time - a very big hit in such a short time! Titled "ONLY IN MALAYSIA", it showcases a few things that is uniquely Malaysian (the SG tourism board will kill me for saying that) like how the people interact and live their lives. With a comedic sense, of course. AND THEY HAVE GREYSON CHANCE IN THEIR VIDEO HOW DID THEY GET HIM.
The producers of the video, known as Jin and Reuben, are 2 male young adults who create these high quality videos which have a humorous punch to them. By high quality, I'm talking about the sound and the video quality. The content is also quite good as well (: they are such talented people!
You should totally go check their other videos out! Like My Generasi, which brings people back to their primary school days. And all those quirks and idiosyncrasies you can definitely relate to! And the video "ABUDEN?!" is supremely hilarious. I won't bring any spoilers here, but you must go search through all their videos. Really brings a smile to your faces :D
And I have to say... their films are so much better than others. And so much more professional. They're not only of high calibre but their stories are also so relatable to us SEAsians! Not people who are trying to act all atas and that. We must learn from them!
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Anyway, some updates on my life. Well, there are many concerts which I will be going to, including RJCO Concert this Saturday, VJCO Concert next Friday, and Street Dance Concert next Saturday. Oh my god. Just realised all that money just flew away.
And my diet starts tomorrow! I mean, exercise regime. The word "diet" when associated with my name = anorexia. My friends used to think I was anorexic and starve myself in Sec 2 / 3 / 4. But I didn't! The interesting (disgusting?) part of my body is that when I don't eat, I feel high. Maybe it's because of those glucagon released and that sudden increase of blood glucose concentration makes me feel that way. Haha, biology terms. You guys probably shouldn't try it though.
Alright, I shall sign off from here. Continue to patronise this awesome blog!
Taxi taxi,
Jradon
10:26 PM
Wednesday, April 25, 2012 ;
In Total Control ♥
My body has always been the weakest asset of my life. I mean apart from a poor constitution since childbirth, I've been eating unhealthily and thinking that I can escape from all of this one day when I magically lose all that weight.
But the thing is, it's not about weight. It never was. It was about the fats, they're the real problem. I should be spending more time losing these fats then finding ways to lose weight. You may get confused here, but when I mean weight, I mean the numbers I see on the weighing scale. I should not just be looking at decreasing that number, but rather, reducing the fats which are the unhealthy part of my body.
This video is one I found on YouTube. It's not a music video by the way. It's a video of this guy (guys?) venturing out in where I think is United Kingdom, and parkouring their hearts out.
I don't know if I ever said this, but I think parkouring is a seriously cool sport. It's like stuntsman x 100 or something like that. I wish I can do something as cool as this. But first, I'd have to become healthier.
You see those people leaping from one place to another, and at such great distances! Isn't that something truly to be marvelled at?
This is why I have a plan to be in total control of my body, to take the reins of my life and ride it out like never before. My first plan is to be able to dance. Isolation. And to be able to control parts of my body as and when I want to. Secondly, I'll take classes in those fighting styles or learn gymnastics. Because if I can't do stunts, I wouldn't be able to boast that I have total control of the physical part of my body. I want to surpass what others thought I can do.
Just saying, I've nothing to prove to anyone. But so much to prove to myself.
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Alright, my life is more or less in control now, so that part is taken care of. It's just weight problems. They're the bane of my life and are making me unable to study well. When I told my mother this, she just said I was finding excuses. I don't know if I truly am, but the thing is, I don't care. I'm gonna lose all this weight, once and for all.
By this time next year, you'll see me so much fitter and healthier. No more fat Xuan Yus anymore.
I'm game >:D
That's all for today actually haha! Continue to read my blog!
